I am a 10-car pileup...

So once again, I haven't been able to post consistently...but I was writing consistently, or somewhat consistently(there were a few days missed) and here are the posts from said writings, he he he.

May 6, 2012

End of week

This week I was/am thankful for...

-Sitting next to the window at work
-Online ordering
-That the Lakers won the first two games against Denver
-The Dodgers saying they'll drop parking to $10 at Dodger Stadium
-Being proactive (I contacted Amazon about our camera's price drop and got refunded $14!)
-Our new DSLR camera (for the baby and shooting regular pics =p)
-Spending time with family last weekend at Barona
-Mom's 70 years of being in the world
-My watch
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May 16, 2012

I am a mini-hurdle...

Uh oh....has it really been 10 days since my last journal entry?  Frick...well, here we go, gotta go at it again....It's been truly a busy busy BUSY past 10 days, travelling, working LONG hours, and just trying to get things done, but I gotta not let it set me back too far... 

Power Question #4:
If you had all the time and all the money in the world, what would you do?

Man, this is such an interesting question; because it seems to be the driving force behind everything we can and can't do, even tho, ideally, it's not how it should be.  But reality is reality, and if I had all the time and all the money in the world, I think I would first try to rid myself and my family of our debts, make sure they're all taken care of, and then start to see how I can use my money to help other people.  I would probably stop working, or arrange to work part-time so that I can just focus on my dreams and other goals that I originally wasn't able to pursue because of work.  I would spend more time with my kid(who hasn't been born yet, but I definitely would be able to spend more quality time with the kid and the wife).  I'm hoping that the status with all the money wouldn't affect me too much, so that's something I'd have to keep tabs on all the time.  I mean, I know it would be pretty difficult; but how many could and would turn down an opportunity like that?  I guess it would have to be something you had to say you tried out...
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May 17, 2012

I am a build-up of pressure...

I've been having that "there's not enough" time feeling, a la Saved By the Bell when Jesse is freaking out and I think taking amphetamines or caffeine pills or something, and they're singing in that group, he he he.  No but seriously, work has been a lot more demanding lately, and maybe rightly so, considering how many months I've had it easy; but it's never fun when the ebs and flows are tidal waves that leave me gasping for air.  I'm definitely not drowning or anything, but I really have had a lot to do the last week or so, which made the vacation we just took all the more relaxing and enjoyable.  I don't understand how people rack up their vacays only to cash them out; they truly are mental health days.  I was able to relax, see Seattle, celebrate Christine's first mother's day, and our first year anniversary!  I loved every minute of it, and we could've seriously spent another week there, if it we had more vacation time to spend(we gotta save some for the baby!). 

But now that we're back, it's all starting to build up a little bit...I gotta start the nursery, install the new closet in the hallway, and a bunch more things, not to mention work, oh and my personal goals and objectives!  Whew!  Breathe....breathe....I just gotta not try to swing for the fences and make sure I don't spread myself too thin, which is something I got in trouble for in college and definitely paid the consequences for.  So here's to taking baby steps, here and there and everywhere! 

Tomorrow, I only wanna do a few things:
-work out
-journal
-build the filing cabinet
-work on closet
-get a massage (time-permitting)

But I gotta do all that before going to mom n pops for the night to take them to the airport for their own trip...I'm so excited for them!

Quote of the day
"Creativity is thinking up new things. Innovation is doing new things."
-Theodore Levitt
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May 19, 2012

Grattitude list
-My laptop
-Christine and my 1 year anniversary
-Getting the chance to celebrate Christinef's 1st mother's day
-Visiting Seattle
-Vacations right after busy work weeks
-excercise
-a supportive wife who knows how upset I get when the Lakers lose
-Lakers beating OKC
-Having a car to drive around in
-How cool our house is
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May 21, 2012

I am power question #6

What’s your ideal day look like? When do you get up? What do you do?
With whom? For whom? Imagine it in vivid detail.

The ideal day...wow, that's a good question.  Well, it would start with waking up early for a change, in time to eat breakfast with the wife.  I'd probably get up around 5:30, read my bible, and pray.  Then, I would eat breakfast and be able to leave by 6AM, in order to get to work by 7AM.  That way, I would be able to get to work early enough, and then work out at lunch, and finish the day off at work by 5 o'clock.  Having woken up early would provide me with the opportunity to get to my old roomates' house and be able to carpool with them.  That way, when we leave at 5 o'clock, I'd be able to get home within a reasonable time.  Then I would complete a few errands, maybe pick up around the house for a few minutes and then have dinner w/ the wife.  After QT with the fam, It would be time to wind down and then shower up and sleep.  And then the day would start over again.  Weekdays would definitely be different from weekends, and even then, not every single day would be the same during the week because I wouldn't do the same thing every single day.  A couple of things maybe, but I'd also have to add my basketball leagues, and swimming time with the wife.  There are a couple of other things I'd do every day, but I'd probably need to make an ideal list for all 7 days of the week, he he he.  But generally, the ideal day as listed above is what I would like to see come to fruition. 

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May 22, 2012

I am the ticking of the clock...

Circles of Control
I recently learned about "Circles of Control;" basically, two intersecting circles in which one circle contains the things that are withIN our control, and the other, those things we canNOT control.  And the overlapping area covered by the intersection of these two circles represents the "grey" or unkown area, where it's difficult to know exactly what is what.  The trick to getting these circles under control is actually being able to identify what is and isn't in our control.  Sometimes, we think we have control over things and stress about them, but in reality, we can't do anything about certain situations and have to just let it go.  I'm not sure where I stand with these circles; or how far they overlap with each other so that I'm unsure about what I need to worry myself with.  But I think it's important to sit on that and think about it, because if we can get these two circles further apart, then the grey area will be much smaller and life would be much simpler.  It would be more black and white, but we all know that usually isnt the case, so the best we can do is push them as far apart as we can and to maintain it.  I would liken it to trying to keep two magnets separated from one another...it takes constant work.  Probably not the best comparison, but in this lil head o'mine, it works ;)

And of course, to sum it all up, one can refer to the always used, often repeated, but rarely applied "Serenity Prayer," which goes, "Lord, grant me the strength to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."  Now how often do we reflect on this prayer?  I think it's something we need to think about every day when we get up in the morning and have on our minds.  With that kind of mindset, or actually, awareness, we are better equipped to face the many many challenges of each day ahead of us.